2) I am not making up a dream. I can come up with a plan for pretty much anything. I have plenty of connections to the community and causes that I could work with and care about. In the past, I commonly got “I can” mixed up with “I am called to do.” Now don’t get me wrong, I am still trying to be servant and help where I can, but I am not forcing a new vision for my life. I am letting God reveal it to me when He is ready.
Man, waiting sucks.
3) I am trying to heal. I have been deeply embedded in feelings of failure, loss, bitterness, and just shame. At the same time, I am It was like grieving a death. Slowly I am realizing it wasn’t true failure, but maybe even success. Another blog post to come on that. Let’s just say, I am still processing.
I have also started reading this book.
I am not in it long enough to tell you any life changing passages but hey, it’s doing something…anything…to go in the direction I want to go. Having felt stuck for months, just picking up a book is surprisingly hard but refreshing.
Dare I say, I feel like I am turning a corner in my self-putty fest that is my brain.